Wednesday, January 21, 2009

T'is what it is.

Well, my portion has been easier to accept since I've been looking through a different pair of glasses. I mean this in a spiritual way. I feel more in control of myself since I've let go of needing to have control. I know that sounds strange but that's exactly how it is.
I've realized that I don't have control on how my kids are going to turn out but, I have control of what I'm going to show them about my love for HIM. I have control over the line they will or will not cross. I have control over loving them and listening to the same story for the 5th time. I have control over not getting angry over spilt milk. (Gravity seems to be a homeschool unit study, all on it's own around here. LOL)
The less I try to control, the more control I actually have.
Asside from that, I am encouraged. Things had not been moving very fast with the house and my husband decided to take 2 weeks off to work on the house. I'm so glad. I know that things will progress more now.
We are also staying in a hotel over the weekend, since, I used my airmiles to reserve a room for my husband, the kids and me. It's my husband's birthday Saturday and he mentioned a couple of weeks ago that he was disappointed that he wouldn't have his cake at the dinningroom table. He also mentioned how he can't wait to just go take a shower when he needs to and wants to. SO.... I put those two together and we are going to a restaurant for lunch on Saturday (between both hockey tournament games) and he will get his cake at the dinningroom table plus, after the afternoon game, we will go to the hotel so we can go swimming, which my DH loves to do with the kids, take our shower, watch Hockey Night in Canada, eat popcorn etc. I'm so looking forward to give him his birthday present!
Anyway, I will post some pictures in "my photo album" soon, like I said, not much has been moving. I will be posting some beautiful pictures of the trees around our yard. It snowed, then freezing rain, then more snow and the trees are sparkling in the orange gold sunrise. Absolutely breath taking!
Keep your blessings counted.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Overwhelmed?

I've always been a positive person. Actually, I've been accused of being "an eternal positive extremist"... say that 10 times quickly.


I don't usually fret or worry because I know God's in control and I think positively. I'm not the one who will die of an ulcer. Not that you can die of that but anyway... ;)


I must although admit, that our living arrangements have been tough to "live" with at times. So far, I've had 2 melt downs, my last one being Saturday. I just got to a point where I felt emotionally and physically, claustrophobic. I felt drained and overwhelmed from the circumstances brought on by the renovation of the house. I was very emotional, irritable and snippy all day. I knew I was wrong to be this way with those I love but I let it overtake me.


On Friday, I went to a homeschooling meeting where I was able to borrow a book titled, "Calm My Anxious Heart" this is not my vocabulary but I knew that I could probably learn SOMETHING from someone else's experience. (There's that positive thinking again)


I read chapter one last night and looked at the lesson that went with it. I was amazed that although I am a positive person, I am anxious by definition. So many things I noted because it spoke to my heart for where I need to change my thought process.


It must really be something the Lord wants me to work on and have victory because our pastor spoke on just that last night. I'm so glad we go to both services, we have so much to learn!


Pastor talked about going to God's medicine cabinet, the bible, to get medicine, His direction and encouragement, to find joy. These are four points that pastor gave us through God's word.




  1. Be in God's word


  2. Give God thanks for the protection and provision He has given (have a thankful heart)


  3. Count your blessings


  4. Lead someone to Christ


In the book I'm reading, she mentions to go to God's word and memorize certain scriptures for a whole week, to pray and go through the different questions which I'm in the process of doing so I can learn to be content in whatever state I am. That's one of the scriptures I need to memorize this week. When the apostle Paul was in the prison, which is NOTHING like today's prisons, he wrote Philippians 4:11-13, "Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."



One thing she said, which I am using to help me trust God, is constantly saying to God, "Lord, I trust the portion you are giving me."



She used the analogy of a cup of tea. Some people are a beautiful teacup with flowers and golden rim, some are a large sturdy one, some are a tiny portion cup. God created us and knows what is the portion we can handle and when He chooses to give us a certain portion in life, and we choose to complain, fret, worry or have a "melt down", we are telling God we do not agree that this is a proper portion for us.



I've decided to accept whatever portion God gives me and trust Him for today, knowing that tomorrow belongs to Him and that I need to focus on today.



Well, I've said lots, yet it has engraved itself in my mind by rehearsing it today.



I hope you are trusting God for the portion He has chosen to give you as the day progresses... even if the temporary toilet overflows... ya... my portion, I accept.



Keep trusting.


Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Overcoming

Well, again it's been a long time. It's difficult to find the right time to come blog since some times my kids are on it watching "Little House on the Prairie" and other times, we're not here, there other times, it's night and I don't like leaving the kids alone in the trailer while my husband is working in the house.

Things are coming along, check out the photo album and you'll see. Yesterday, the picts. aren't there yet, two friends came to tear out the walls and ceiling to the livingroom, which will be the dinning room, and the hallway. What a difference!

I have so much to share but I watched a video that my friend emailed me and cried so hard.

It's about a boy that was amputated at birth, due to cancer. He has one leg and plays all sorts of sports. Obviously, this made me think of my son, Jacob. For some of you who might not of read "Jacob's Story", it's on my blog, at the bottom of the page.

I wanted to share this video with you because I love making people cry...LOL kidding. I saw so many similarities of this boy and our son Jacob, that I knew it would show you a bit of my son at the same time.

Enjoy.

Keep overcoming.


Wednesday, December 31, 2008

It's been a while...

I hope you all had a memorable Christmas, whether good or bad. The fact that Jesus left His glorious home above, full of praises for Him, adoration and love, to be born in a stinky, cold cave like barn, to poor, young, innocent parents. To then grow up in a mean, selfish spirited society full of God haters, knowing He would die for those exact people and us, not much different than them. Suffer a cruel, unfair judgement and penalty for being who He truly was; our Saviour.
Our Christmas was truly different but I've learnt through my saved years that God has a genuine sense of humor.
We had no running water in the house and the toilets had been taken out to get things ready for the plumber. That was ok because my parents live only 5 minutes away, so we were taking our showers there and getting water there. As for the purging needs, we had a toilet in the R.V.... until it got bitter cold and froze what was inside the reservoir. :/ This meant we could no longer use our "facility". We called everywhere to see if we could find a place to live which would be cheap for the next month or so. Long story short, I went to Lawton's drugs and got a "chapeau", meant for measuring urine, and placed that on the toilet. (Sorry for the details lol)
This allowed us to stay in the RV since every other place wanted to charge between 1295$ and 2400$. We prefered saving that money and putting it on the house, plus, this would keep the momentum on the finishing of the house.
On the 24th, the plumber came to install a temporary toilet but with the cold in the house, the water pump cracked... so we were back to the "chapeau".
Our pastor and his wife invited us to stay over at their house for a few days until we had our "facility" fixed.
This is where the humor begins. I thought that we should get our pastor and his wife a gift to thank them for their hospitality. My husband called to say he had thought the SAME, so we had two gifts to give them. When we arrived at our pastor's and his wife's home, we gave them our gift which was wrapped, and they brought us to our room which, on the dresser, was the SAME gift, but not wrapped. My husband and I chuckled as we waited for Mrs. Seely to unwrap their gift. She thought it was histaricle since with the size of our city and the choice of stores and gifts, what are the odds of getting the SAME gift?
The next morning, we prepared breakfast and got ready for the opening of gifts by wrapping some gifts. Our family gifts were in a Costco bag. Soon the bottom of the tree was filled with beautifully wrapped gifts, then we put the children and our gifts under. To our amazement, every single gift had the SAME wrapping paper.
HELLO!?!
In the midst of a vastly different Christmas for our family, God found a way to bring not only some humor, but some SAMEness.
Today is New Year's Eve. We are expecting a blizzard tonight and tomorrow but the roof of the old part of the house is almost all shingled and the addition has roofing, the interior damage should be minimal.
I've put up more photos in our album, be sure to check it out.
I want to extend warm hopes of a great year 2009 for you and your family. I pray that you will either find the narrow way that brings comfort, peace and salvation (John 14:6, "I am the way, the Truth and the life, no man cometh unto the Father but by me." said Jesus), or stand firm and draw closer to Him as this year will pass by us just as quickly as 2008 has.
Look for YOUR purpose.

Monday, December 22, 2008

OK!?......

I've never physically been punched in the face and had those birds chirping around my head, my eyes turning in circles, like the cartoons do but I'm sitting here with a feeling of being able to relate to that feeling. Not necessarily the hit but cartoon effect after the blow.
Those of you in this area have felt the effects of the storm that was a bit mysterious. The details of it kept changing. I thought maybe it was one of those weather "events" that would just not happen. (ha ha... jokes on me)
I "wish" I could effectively communicate the experience of being in the RV and the journey of this all. It's not really bad in a physical sense although it requires adjustment to the environment; space wise, and it requires a lot of mental preparation and emotional strength. I must be honest, I have no idea how a person who has no personal relationship with God could go through this. I have Him by my side, coaching me through the frustrating times and holding me close in the discouraging times.
My deaf friends gave me a Christmas gift with the footprints poem on it and it is so true. I have the same poem on my bible case. I really like that poem.
Last night, the RV rocked back and forth in the wind and I could hear the tarp, on the roof of the house, flapping in the wind. I heard the boards slapping against one another and wondered if the house would make it through the storm. I got out of bed a few times to check through the window and saw that it was still standing. With a sigh of relief, I noticed the back door had flung open so I put on my boots and raced over to the house to close it. I went in at first to get my ketch my breath and saw the snow drifts in the basement and in the mudroom. I had decided that I had to make sure that door didn't open again. I closed it shut and pulled on it as hard as I could but it slipped out of jam. I worked at it for a while and finally it stayed but this morning my husband told me it was open again.
You know, it sort of like us isn't it? Jesus says in Revelation 3:320, "Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me." Sometimes, especially those who have never accepted Jesus Christ as their Saviour, see the door, maybe even hear the knock on the door of our heart, and do everything in our power to make sure the door stays shut. We don't want to let Jesus in to have an effect on us, change us, cover our sins and transgressions against God and make us "white as snow." Says Isaiah 1:18 "Come now, and let us reason together, saith the LORD: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool. "
I must say, I'm really starting to have that ownership feeling for the house. I went upstairs and saw all that snow on the floor and wanted to clear it out. In some places, there was over 2' of snow. I nailed the boards back up, put some other one on some holes, push some snow over but the wind kept blowing it back in. I felt heavy in my heart for my home. Wanting so much to make it right, make it my home once and for all. Oddly enough, although everything is in a mess right now, it's my home. I'm so looking forward to being able to be living inside my home and warming it up, keeping it clean, and filling it up with the Lord's presence. I hope I get to do that soon. It's like Dorothy says in the movie, "The Wizard of Oz", "There's no place like home".
It obviously makes me think of Heaven and how much better that place will be.
There's no place like home....

(don't forget to check out the update photos in my album)

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Just moving along


So much has been happening at the house and the Lord has been showing me so much in the last days, it's really exciting.
First, my dad is home for the next 3 weeks, for Christmas. He works out in Alberta, as for my brother. It's REALLY nice to have him home. My brother arrives this Friday. It will be so nice to have us all together for a little while.
The house is coming along really well. They, notice it's not "we"...lol, gutted all the inside of the entire house. We didn't expect to have to do all that but since we found quite a few dead rats and mice, my husband decided it would be best. This will make it easier for the plumber and electrician to do their job. The house needs to be completely rewired and the plumbing needs to be redone. If you check out our photo album, you'll see the updated pictures and you'll see the work "Pitou" and his brother did yesterday, in the storm.
I need to brag on "Pitou" for a minute because I was taught to give credit where credit is due. If you are planning on doing ANY type of building or renovating, I highly recommend "Deveau Framing". "Pitou" who's real name is Francis... don't ask... worked out in Calgary but is from here and is a good worker, takes his work seriously and does it well. My husband is VERY happy with his work because he takes the time it needs to do things right but is not a slow worker. He knows what he's doing and it shows.
There.... lol
As for what the Lord has been showing me... He has been showing me so many things in His word but the one that stands out the most is for my kids. Proverbs 16:6 says, "By mercy and truth iniquity is purged: and by the fear of the LORD men depart from evil." God showed me and pressed on my heart when I read this that by showing mercy (compassion, pity, or benevolence) to my children and remembering to constantly expose them to truth (the bible) my children will have the tools for better discernment, and making the right choices.
Another thing in particular was Proverbs 17:1 "Better is a dry morsel, and quietness therewith, than an house full of sacrifices with strife." It is better to live in the RV and love one another, be kind one to another etc than work hard on the house and be fighting, arguing and being bitter. Our house will not be a home if so many people helped to build it and we, the family, couldn't stop being selfish, bitter and resentful to help build our home.
I want our house to be a home where people love to and receive blessing and sense the love and compassion that our Lord has been more than generous with toward us; towards me.
I love my Jesus so much but I fail to show it as much as I should. He has been so merciful, kind, compassionate and forgiving that I should mirror that back to others. I want Him to have the freedom to show Himself in our home so that others will be drawn to Him.
Keep close to Him.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

What's up!

Well, things are progressing at the house. We don't realize how much TV changes our way of thinking until you have a similar experience and somehow the TV show becomes a seed of resentment, envy and confusion.
What am I talking about?
Take "Extreme Makeovers the Home Edition" They have huge houses demolished and rebuilt in 7 days and in our television experience, 7 days is equivalent to 1 hour.
Now compare that to our experience. ahhhhhhh you get it! Here we are, working on week 7 of the renovation and things are not quite where I'd like them to be. I expected to be decorating my home for Christmas, having friends over and enjoying my home, although in the process of renovations, not quite to this extreme.
This has really been, thus far, a lesson in God's timing and will for things. One can wonder and try to understand why the house can't be liveable but why bother? Will it change anything? It's better just to trust and wait on the Lord for His timing.
At first, I mean, wayyyyyyy at first, when we still lived on the Bahama.... :/ the kitchen would be the very last thing worked on so I was to be patient and not expect great things with it until the rest of the house was done. I agreed and didn't become bitter. Low and behold, the kitchen will be the first indoor thing to be completed. I wonder if God chose to bless my good attitude?!
This is a perfect example that I feel God is using to remind me that everything is under control. The weather we've been having is another example of His faithfullness.
I want to have peace in my life and although being in my new home would be great, it would not garantee peace. If I wait on God and choose to be in His will, accepting where we are with the renos and wait for His timing, I am garanteed peace. Exd 33:14 "And he said, My presence shall go with thee, and I will give thee rest."
There was some work done on the house so I've put a new album for you to see. There are some before and not quite afters to check out so enjoy!
Keep the peace.